There’s this thing about me that I always forget, and that is if I really try. I CAN be thankful. Even on days, I’d constitute as bad.
Today, for instance, FELT like a shit storm. I went from breakfast to Cadre, to meeting with Josh and Heidi, to brief Admin Office time to lunch prep, to snack prep to CPP meeting to dinner, to stuff I was supposed to do yesterday, to now.
And even though I am and will be fucking tired forever.
I am relishing this moment.
This morning I was filled with resentment for alarm clocks and obligations, staying up too late doing nothing, feeling like a failure, etc.
Right now I feel like staying awake forever. (Thanks caffeine + poorish judgment – I write at 1 am)
Right now I feel alive and conscious and capable of processing difficult and complex ideas.
I am sitting in Josh’s office, he has now gone to bed (because he is old and fragile), and I feel like sitting here with nothing but the sound of the mini fridge and the several cooling fans of various electronics to keep me company.
And in this moment I am definitely thankful.
The year is new and I am and always will be new.
I am surrounded by interesting and dynamic people, I can literally be a fly on the wall and basically watch people’s lives go by.
I am uniquely lucky to be surrounded by people who love the way these people do.
How do you live any other way?